Breakfast.

I guess i wasnt really happy with the way how you really treat a guy who likes you. I tried so hard to be always there for you. But where were you when i need you the most? Talkin through the phone with another. I said i didnt have a good day and yea, you jst replied you'l talk to me next time. You dnt know how it feels to see that reply. You didnt even concern about what happened. When i really have nowhere to go. Was out there in the night with no key to the damn 'extra' lock. A night passed and the next day was your exam. I didnt want you to be late for it and hungry when you'r doing your paper. Went to buy breakfast to her house and yea her mom opened the door, went in t sit while waiting. I knew she would either be surprised or angry with me. And yea she wasnt surprised. I jst wonder which guy would do all these to that extent. Asked to leave. And I did. I wasnt really well appreciated from the quick shut of the door jst as i step out of the house. I wonder what am i really doing, and if i did sth wrong again. Alright enough said, i really shouldnt be like this anymore. It jst doesnt touches your heart with all these shit things i did. So jst forget about being me anymore, i'v tried to care about you more and being nice to you after you said im bad to you, i changed since then, and for many months im always trying and trying, and i get all these. I really dnt understand if thats the way you treat a guy you liked.

You didnt.

Saw her yst at her void deck. Was so happy and i missed her alot. I guess she did too. So we walked ard talkin abt our stuffs. I asked how was she and all. Yeap. It has been 2 weeks since i last saw her. She asked me to go her house accompany her study, because jacky and pals were fishing at the pond near her house. So i went to dw house to stay, so it'l be nearer to go her house. I asked why you not going study with marc and all. You told me no need because you had all the answer sheets. I was overjoyed to hear that, really. I thought i could accompany you again. You told me you shouldnt hug or kiss me when you see me, but you jst couldnt help it. You told me you wont be with me even if so. But im willing to wait, babe. Knowing you'l eventually be mine, i would wait as long as i have to. Her mom called several times and she had to go home. So i walked her to her door. We hugged gently and off she went into her house. She said she's tired so she wont be calling me. And yea while i was back with jacky and all, she called, i guessed it was her when my phone rang. I was surprised, and also really glad that she called. We talked not kinda long but yea i enjoyed talkin to you. It was ages since we last talked like this alr. And yea you were tired so i asked you to go and sleep. Reminiscing how you jst hold me so tight and talked to me, i thought you really changed.

I went to dw house to sleep for the night. and waited for you. I woke up at 9+ checkd my phone for your call or msges and went back to sleep. Again 12pm i woke up and checkd, dw had alr went to school at 11am to fetch merlyn. I was so excited i couldnt wait to see you again, so i woke up and waited. I thought you would feel this way too. I knew you were still asleep so i msged to remind you to call me when i can go over to your place. I woke up and lay there, jst staring into space. But at 3 49pm you msged, telling me you'r going out to study and remind me to help you to do the transaction. I thought you ask me to go outside study with you. So i called to ask. You told me you'r not meeting me anymore.

"Why?"
"i told you see how yst night alr"

So i stoned there, i was at a lost of words. I was really disappointed man, seriously. There was a moment of silence. And jacky called. I said "hold on" and i answered his call. And i heard you hanged my call alr. I tried to call back, you didnt want to pick up. So i pack my things and went to bathe, i brought my phone in, even hoping and thinking that you'd feel sth, turn them down and ask me to find you. But you did not. I knew i had to go home. Bathed and all i went down and walk towards your house. Texted you "really not gna meet me instead of your friends? Im under your block." You didnt reply. So i waited downstairs.

Im used to all these waiting and all, but i didnt think that you'l really do this so suddenly even in my dreams. Alright, seriously im so disappointed and upset, jst dnt know why would you rather meet them than me. You can see them in school everyday! And i really thought you'd change somehow a little. Alright, im all wrong. I gta go for a puff right now.